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There is nothing more complex than  human relationships and emotions . Came back from a play that was a murder mystery thriller with the backdrop being unhappy marriage and an extra marital affair ! At times when I look around me I find the complexity looming large , jealousy, underlying malice, sarcasm and a race to prove I can live without  you ! And it is all camouflaged nicely with a superficial smile ! I would have revolted even a few years back, but now I go with the flow....have I lost the sting? Maybe, like Bhaskar tells me only a few years are left....why waste it in a quarrel..enjoy what you get , when you get ...all Osho style And then I wonder are there real friends ? Or is there  always sheen over our innate jealous mind? I must be in a bitch-of -a -mood to ponder over this on a sunday evening ...but after having "lost" so many of my friends to reasons that are trivial and trifle I realized it is better to go with the flow...enjoy those who are in your li...

I heard about this long ago in a psychology workshop that we had in the school  where I used to teach. It is about being forced out of the comfort zone, the cocoon.... The eagle mother builds her nest with two layers- one,  the soft downy upper layer so that the nestlings are comfortable and snug in the early days and the bottom a layer of thorns and all things sharp. When it is time for the babies to fly and they dither and refuse, the mamma , just pecks away the soft layer so that the nestlings are poked sharply with the thorns and are forced to fly....Animal kingdom is strange , the male cubs are always the first ones to be ousted by the mother tiger, and in a matriarch driven elephant herd it's more or less the same story ! So am I the eagle mother? I can never tell. I see my friends kids move out and away and hear them talk of the empty nest syndrome ...and I refuse to think about it - my Scarlett O Hara attitude at it's best! Till then one of my favorites.....from the...

Finally Holi is over ! It is the least favorite of all the festivals that I celebrate- infact I would hide and pretend to be sick just to avoid being dunked with water and colors. For me it only looks good on screen...Amitabh serenading Rekha in an explicit illegitimate love relation and more recently the wild raucousness of Balam pichkari ! This year somehow I  could not escape the  Holi dunking at work. The younger lot has so much more enthusiasm than us and it was a mad rush and whoosh of colors that kind of took away the humdrum of the workday- It was a saturday so that kind of helped to let the wild side be....Some had a blast , some , like me tolerated and some were literally angry...:) ! With Sheroo...December 1993 ( Nicco Park) It was a relaxed weekend for me.Bhaskar played Holi, had his silly adult fight ...brooded over that and I watched "Frozen" ( Thanks to Chibu) cleaned my clothes almirah and listened to guruji telling the tale of Hiranyakashipu and Prahla...

Beyond Maya Angelou I have never been much of a fan of the Womens' Day ! Thanks to Archies and now the internet everyday is Someday ! Coming back to the topic of women and empowerment- I end up listenng to the countless debates on TV cos Bhaskar loves debates and I always felt that is  waste of time in a sanitized auditorum by people who are all gab not guts ! I keep meeting ladies from all walks of life who are gutsy and strong , yet despite that, they give up! I was speaking to my mom in law's care-giver, she talked about her daughter's episode of "beesh khaoa" so nonchalantly ! It was so by the way...and I thought of my gutsy colleague who just gave up her life oneday ! I admire people who actually work at trying to elevate the lives of these people , who work as counsellors to eliminate suicides , who work against women traficking and rehabilitation- be it a man or a woman! In many ways I always feel that  despite the debates, the sexes are complementary...

Somedays are good...and I know I should not be greedy and ask for more ! Day before yesterday Guruji said that Shivratri was the time for Sankalp...of wishes coming true ! But he said...only one wish...but I have so many ..........