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Being me !

It was one on those rare easy morning - we sat over our tea and talked about relationships. Bhaskar 's contention was that getting old is getting better with oneself - feeling settled and finding  acceptance. He said he has enjoyed life more in these last ten years than he did in his youth when he was "chasing" something or the other :) He rectified and said that mostly he was chasing runs, being the cricketer that he was! With relationships being so brittle all around , sometimes I am amazed when someone makes the effort to keep it going despite the nonchalance all around . In many ways I still believe in the old fashioned  theory of commitment ! The single rose in the rose bush after many days of drought  was quite symbolic - standing out on its own - singularly all by itself ! Some days , like I said are good - and beyond the hustle bustle of life, not having to leave home at 9 to beat the late mark,not have that  exasperation of the traffic and the deadlines .Ther

Reluctant Mother

The much hyped Mothers' Day is over - and I can breathe easy. People can call me jealous, cos my son unlike the others is not so fastidious about wishing me and I have no one I can wish. He woke up at 1 in the afternoon and wished.....after a few reminders I am sure. Back in school we used to have "Mothers' Day" - a day when the mothers came to see their children perform on stage. Once I was in the orchestra playing the triangle, and as we marched out I tried to look beyond the spotlight trying to find ma behind that darkness in the hall full of mothers. Ma always laughed as she narrated how I stopped on the tracks and looked for her and was nudged by the others. Coming back myself , I began as a reluctant mother. Life for me was a breeze, parties, part time jobs, going out , travels, who wanted to be tied down to a crying baby and changing diapers?It took me almost five and a half years, two miscarriages and a major session of counselling to realize that I should