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Taking an unexpected break can be fun! Especially if it's midweek and a busy working day ! The reason may be anything- but I needed my time amid the trials ! At times life throws its challenges in a strange way- on the face of it life is calm...but I feel the tensions within, the relationships strained, hidden pressures at work...uncertainties ! Over my cup of tea and warm soon -to -be winter sunshine and the sparrows chirping, I know it wasn't what I should be thinking about. Sometimes I think of some relationships like my old black sweatshirt- frayed at the edges, comfortable, ugly but snug ! I have been wearing this for years and despite the fact that it is in tatters I cannot throw it out! So are relationships like that? Frayed and in tatters but cannot be broken because you feel comfortable within that ? It has happened many a times with my friends - I know I should move on, but I stay in the fray because it's a place I know ! I need my solo time again ! But that'

However much I like this season , when the winter is on the threshold and the days are not sweaty and the nights cool...but it's still autumn, the season of falling leaves and falling hair ! These days at work I often listen to the rich baritone of Nat king Cole singing "Autumn Leaves " while my colleagues discuss the many remedies of preventing hair fall. One of my colleague with Rapunzel like hair lamented that now she has a bagful ..."Enough to make me a wig !" was my gleeful comment ! But Not Appreciated ! I realized that I don't have to worry on this count at least- having lost most of it to hormone and age ...you  don't  break your head over what you don't have. It's like I have learnt to live with the few strands left...and would call myself having challenged follicles than bald ! These days there is a fancy names for everything- housewives are domestic engineers and doing the daily chores is domestic mechanics ..so why not me ? Hair

This is one song I never get tired of..At different stages of my life  this song has held  different meanings..... The curious transforming life........

When people are in love in movies ,the parks where they romance around the trees doesn't have a  single peeping Tom  and a 40 piece orchestra pop out of nowhere to perfectly synchronize the music and the hero and heroines are born "shyaar"s- excellent in rhyming the lyrics !  That's what Siddharth said to "Miss Chamko"! This afternoon's "Chasme Buddoor " brought back memories of going for that movie with Subarna and an erstwhile male friend who got lost in the bylanes of time .. And we went to Paradise (does the hall exist ?) It was a day filled with fun I remember ! And of course Farrukh Shaikh and Deepti Naval were the flavor of the season- earthy, real and very connectable and Sai Parnjpaye wove stories out of mundane middle class lives ! Then  Sayed Jaffri and Rakesh Bedi and Ravi Vaswani supported the story with a bit of  villiany and a bit of bufoonery...it's sad that some of them are no more ! Ode to real romance of a

Sharing a life time of  memory can be a daunting task, 'cos you cannot choose between all that is equally precious to you. We connected over "pop songs" and Don and YC and found that we have an unexplored world of adventure before us (some definitely out of bounds ). From watching "Blue Lagoon " to having Blind Love at Sub Zero, to mooning over guys and sharing books and music- the friendship lasted over the years through the years of yellow envelopes with wavy postmarks  and picture postcards and aerograms finally graduating to international calls and more recently Facebook chats ! If I look back I cannot quite pinpoint what made the friendship tick...but I sure am thankful that in a world where "best friend-ship" crumbles under ego, pressure and motives fair and foul, ours has stayed blessed through thick and thin. Some of the best moments in my life that makes me smile on bleak days have been with Subarna and some of the best clicks that reminds

A few days back it was Karwa Chauth ! The moon took it's time to peep out of the cloudy sky- thus prolonging the hungry and the thirsty from praying for their husbands' long life and breaking the day long fast ! Funny how I never fasted, never bothered to keep mannats and brotos for my loved ones even though on the face of it I am quite spiritual with a religious bent ! I guess that's the selfish streak in me that does not want to give up on food for even one day ! I remember a Sadhu traveling with us from Guwahati trying to convince me that my life would have sea change if I just give up on meat! And he took my number and would remind me from time to time to change my ways.........till he gave up ! And despite my Art Of living training , that's something I cannot give up !The only time I was willingly off meat was when Ma passed away and my body and soul were mourning- so the craving left for all of 14 days...and stayed for some more time. I really don't know w