stuck on you !

Taking an unexpected break can be fun! Especially if it's midweek and a busy working day ! The reason may be anything- but I needed my time amid the trials ! At times life throws its challenges in a strange way- on the face of it life is calm...but I feel the tensions within, the relationships strained, hidden pressures at work...uncertainties ! Over my cup of tea and warm soon -to -be winter sunshine and the sparrows chirping, I know it wasn't what I should be thinking about. Sometimes I think of some relationships like my old black sweatshirt- frayed at the edges, comfortable, ugly but snug ! I have been wearing this for years and despite the fact that it is in tatters I cannot throw it out! So are relationships like that? Frayed and in tatters but cannot be broken because you feel comfortable within that ? It has happened many a times with my friends - I know I should move on, but I stay in the fray because it's a place I know ! I need my solo time again ! But that's wishful thinking - with so many responsibilities, a job that's here today and gone tomorrow -I am stuck .....with my old sweatshirt , and my life !

“You spend your whole life stuck in the labyrinth, thinking how you'll escape one day, and how awesome it will be, and imagining that future keeps you going, but you never do it. You just use the future to escape the present.”(John Green).......