Taking an unexpected break can be fun! Especially if it's midweek and a busy working day ! The reason may be anything- but I needed my time amid the trials ! At times life throws its challenges in a strange way- on the face of it life is calm...but I feel the tensions within, the relationships strained, hidden pressures at work...uncertainties ! Over my cup of tea and warm soon -to -be winter sunshine and the sparrows chirping, I know it wasn't what I should be thinking about. Sometimes I think of some relationships like my old black sweatshirt- frayed at the edges, comfortable, ugly but snug ! I have been wearing this for years and despite the fact that it is in tatters I cannot throw it out! So are relationships like that? Frayed and in tatters but cannot be broken because you feel comfortable within that ? It has happened many a times with my friends - I know I should move on, but I stay in the fray because it's a place I know ! I need my solo time again ! But that's wishful thinking - with so many responsibilities, a job that's here today and gone tomorrow -I am stuck .....with my old sweatshirt , and my life !
I always told this story to my trainees. About being the Eagle mum. An eagle mum prepares the nest in two layers, first downy feathers and below that,the thorns. When it is time to fly she removes the downy feathers so that the fledglings who refuse to fly fall on the thorns and that makes them flap n fly away! Bhaskar always calls is cruelty, the bojjat mommy! But to me its a way to push one out of the comfort zone, for the world waits beyond! My kiddos moved out to their own place today. And despite being an eagle mum, I kind of miss the chatter. I knew in my heart I would miss having them around... But they need to find their wings!
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