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Post "Meluha" I have become a big fan of the Blue Lord ! After all , he is dedicated and a great dancer ! As I grew up in a "para', shiboratri was a big do, especially for young girls looking for a groom like the lord! I never participated, cos my spirituality was influenced by my grandmother , who clearly preferred the more astute Krishna to Shiva. And I clearly did not want someone so devoted to the Chillum ( Hookah wasn't cool then) and the snake, omg !!! However, over the years my perspective changed - and I have come to admire the creator and the destroyer in many ways ! I still am not into shivratri ...but thanks to Sri Sri, I try and chant the mantra "om namah Shivaye" 108 times and pray to the lord...I have also learnt to look beyond the ash smeared , tigerskin wearing , ganja smoking deity and find some relevance of his attributes in my life - a loyal friend and husband ...good father (mostly), protector and one who leads from the  front....

I always like the sound of the rains at night. They kind of  sing a steady lullaby and I just feel secure that everyone's at home and safe while it pours through out the night. The morning after dawned grey and squally and the chill came back and so did our woollens, for a while. It was a pleasure to be woken up by a host of chirping sparrows flying around inside the box window of our bedroom, taking shelter from the sudden shower. And our dusty garden looked rainwashed and clean :) ! Life is back to normal post Valentine mania , and we could actually find a CCD that had place and the waiters were not harried! Love in these time of hate does bring in a change with the media suddenly focusing on the price of roses and what to do on the V-Day and how to resurrect love :P ! Actually it can be amusing - l I was late signing the attendance register at work , cos I spent  a good10 minutes watching the antics of a young couple just across the lane - being a voyeur can be vicarious in

5 days old...after turning 50! I  feel that celebration comes from staying healthy and happy. Despite everyone telling me "It's going to be fine!" the thought of the biopsy result was looming like a continuous worry! The doctor didn't offer the usual "Don't worry!" assurance like last time, when the biopsy was conducted in 2005! Bhaskar later told me it was a big relief when he picked up my "safe" report and signed the register , where the reports which indicated malignancy were written in red. I guess one more reason to let go of the minor hassles in life! But I forget my lessons soon....human nature always ungrateful for being spared. Saraswati Poojo came with the fading nip in the air. It may be the last year that Chibu is helping me with the poojo preparation. This time I skipped the "thakur ana" bit because I felt last years "thakur" was lucky for Chibu :) !So for three years she stays till Chibu stabilises - finds h